This last 6 months have been strange. I have simultaneously been more blessed then I could ever dream and more overwhelmed then I could ever imagine.
I've been praying a lot about this. How can I feel so burdened when Gods yolk is light? How can I be so stressed and broken standing amongst such blessing? To be honest, I end most days feeling so ungrateful. Not because I am. No, I clearly see Gods hand working in my life in STUNNING jaw dropping ways; but because through all the blessings I still feel such weight.
Then this Sunday God used my pastors message to remind me of His amazing Hope, and His plan for me.
This Sunday I saw Mary the mother of MY Savior unmasked. The veil of wonder at her virgin birth momentarily lifted so I could see her as a woman.
Imagine with me if you will...
Being a poor 16 year old girl. You'd be trying to make plans for your future. Maybe you'd want to be married; she did. Maybe you'd want do find a way to improve your lot in life; most of us do. You'd work day in and out, life would be hard, but still you'd strive on. After all you have your faith to remind you that indeed there is something better then this.
Imagine hearing that you would become pregnant.
....That thought alone holds such weight for me. When we found out about my son I saw my future plummet. I know that's not an easy thing to hear; it's not an easy thing to admit. It is the truth though. I had plans. I was going to make it. I was going to be someone. I was NOT planning to be a statistic let alone any one's mom. I was scared....
But at that moment when Gabriel told her of Gods delight in her and His plans for her she didn't question him she said YES. She accepted His call and blessing.
Don't you think it was hard? I know it was for me. Being young, unmarried, and pregnant. People must have talked. They always do.
How do you think she felt when they said she had to go to Bethlehem? Now not only was she blessed to be carrying the son of God, but God was requiring her to travel a great distance for His birth. We know that she went. We know that Joseph got her a donkey so she wouldn't have to walk. I know donkeys stink. I know traveling when you are pregnant is never comfortable. In that moment do you suppose she felt heavy too? She carried on and did what God was asking of her but I can't help wondering if she cried out to God that this was to much for her to bare.
When they got to Bethlehem and could find no room anywhere do you think she was frustrated? I know I would be.
When the pain got to be too much and God provided the stable do you think she was grateful? While still feeling grateful do you suppose she also wondered...why here? Why have you chosen to be born here Lord? Do you think she even thought of her tender ...soft cheeked, sweet smelling baby as her King of Kings?
How do you think she felt living in Egypt during Jesus' toddlerhood? I know that raising a family without your own can be exhausting.
When Jesus cried, she comforted Him and his siblings. He was not her only child. Her hands were full. Yet, when He was eager to learn don't you suppose she taught Him? her child- fully human and fully God, being His mother must of been both a complete blessing and daunting.
He was sent to save the world. She knew that. Yet He was her son. It's incomprehensible to me what she must of felt as His ministry grew. As the cross approached.
I can never visualize that day on the cross without picturing Mary too. Her child, her Lord. She must have felt so overwhelmed, so broken, so devastated.
Did she know that day when Gabriel told her Gods plans what it all meant? What she'd feel along the way? I doubt it.
I also doubt that she gave over to the guilt of her negative thoughts (if she had any). She was being used by God. He had a plan to bless her, and prosper her. Plans to give her hope and a future.
I am being used by God. By seeing Mary as a woman/mother I am able to find myself.
I am not raising the son of God but I can relate to Mary. He has called me to raise 3 of his most wonderful creations. They are marvels of His hands. He longs for them to know Him. That is my purpose. As long as I have brought them to Him and the Cross to worship I am a success. I am significant. He doesn't care if my house is clean or they can do algebra- so why do I allow myself to feel so burdened by those things and thoughts of the future?
Feelings are fleeting. They are fickle and changing- my God is not.
So like Mary I will follow the path He has laid before me. I just hope there are no donkeys in my future.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
In Gods heart...
...it's funny to me how God links moments together like the links on a necklace. So delicate and so beautiful you can hardly wait to show off His finished work.
There have been moments of my life arranged in such a way this week that I knew I had to come here and share my heart- strike that-His heart for you.
(It all started with my hubby surprising me with a new necklace. I have been wanting it for AWHILE now. I knew he was planning to get it, but fiscally I didn't see it happening...but it did.
Then yesterday in conversation he asked me why I stopped taking time to blog. You see, this page is really the only time I take for myself outside of my devotional time. My life is very child minded. All of my hobbies, other blogs and life in general revolve around being present for my children, or my children. I don't say this as a bad thing. It's the purpose in my life right now, and I love it. But, after our conversation I got to thinking and realized that maybe this fact is why I've felt so heavy and exhausted lately.
Then this morning, as though a confirming nudge from God I received a quick comment from a dear sister. It reminded me that all our journeys are linked. That God uses each of us mightily in each others life's.
I needed that reminder. I am grateful for it.
Reminders are good, especially for forgetful people like me.
That brings me back to the necklace, and Gods heart.)
It has been amazing to see what an impact a tangible thing has on my mood. A quick fingering of this necklace and I am reminded of who I really am.
Now I feel He wants me to remind you. That necklace or not- In Gods Heart you too are...
Created- I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalms 139:14
Chosen- The Lord has chosen you to be His treasured possession
Deuteronomy 14:2
Celebrated- He will take great delight in you...He will rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
Cherished- I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving kindness.
Jeremiah 31:3
and so much more. You are His beloved. You ARE His heart.
...and you are in mine.
Necklace link: God's heart for You Necklace
There have been moments of my life arranged in such a way this week that I knew I had to come here and share my heart- strike that-His heart for you.
(It all started with my hubby surprising me with a new necklace. I have been wanting it for AWHILE now. I knew he was planning to get it, but fiscally I didn't see it happening...but it did.
Then yesterday in conversation he asked me why I stopped taking time to blog. You see, this page is really the only time I take for myself outside of my devotional time. My life is very child minded. All of my hobbies, other blogs and life in general revolve around being present for my children, or my children. I don't say this as a bad thing. It's the purpose in my life right now, and I love it. But, after our conversation I got to thinking and realized that maybe this fact is why I've felt so heavy and exhausted lately.
Then this morning, as though a confirming nudge from God I received a quick comment from a dear sister. It reminded me that all our journeys are linked. That God uses each of us mightily in each others life's.
I needed that reminder. I am grateful for it.
Reminders are good, especially for forgetful people like me.
That brings me back to the necklace, and Gods heart.)
It has been amazing to see what an impact a tangible thing has on my mood. A quick fingering of this necklace and I am reminded of who I really am.
Now I feel He wants me to remind you. That necklace or not- In Gods Heart you too are...
Created- I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalms 139:14
Chosen- The Lord has chosen you to be His treasured possession
Deuteronomy 14:2
Celebrated- He will take great delight in you...He will rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
Cherished- I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving kindness.
Jeremiah 31:3
and so much more. You are His beloved. You ARE His heart.
...and you are in mine.
Necklace link: God's heart for You Necklace
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Tonight...
I come.
To seek refuge. To wait. To hope. To kneel.
Tonight, I wonder.
How can a weary body be home to such a fullness in spirit? How can I feel so weak, yet my resolve be so strong? How can I learn to rest at His feet when my calling is so urgent and consuming? How can I let go of this need to do it all, when I know that I can do NOTHING without Him?
Tonight, I pray.
That I can step outside of this box. That I can fully give of myself without resentment, and exhaustion. That He will show me His will and way. That I will let go of it all, to sit at His feet with my family and bask in how bountifully He has chosen to bless us. That His beloved will all feel His presence, love, provision, grace, and mercy. That we can sing a new song. A song to shed our broken bodies or spirits. A song that brings our eyes always back to the cross.
Tonight, I listen.
I strain. You are whispering. You are calling. You oh Lord are using my tired body to shout.
...stop Here dear one. Rest Here. Don't forget that I cradle you in My hands. I am your Abba. Only I know the hairs on your head, and the intentions in your heart of hearts. I am your Maker. A word of My mouth caused the days to turn to night so that you may rest. Find your rest in Me. Trust that I know what I am doing for you. Let go, I WILL catch it all. Rest on my promises. I am.
Tonight, I rest.
To seek refuge. To wait. To hope. To kneel.
Tonight, I wonder.
How can a weary body be home to such a fullness in spirit? How can I feel so weak, yet my resolve be so strong? How can I learn to rest at His feet when my calling is so urgent and consuming? How can I let go of this need to do it all, when I know that I can do NOTHING without Him?
Tonight, I pray.
That I can step outside of this box. That I can fully give of myself without resentment, and exhaustion. That He will show me His will and way. That I will let go of it all, to sit at His feet with my family and bask in how bountifully He has chosen to bless us. That His beloved will all feel His presence, love, provision, grace, and mercy. That we can sing a new song. A song to shed our broken bodies or spirits. A song that brings our eyes always back to the cross.
Tonight, I listen.
I strain. You are whispering. You are calling. You oh Lord are using my tired body to shout.
...stop Here dear one. Rest Here. Don't forget that I cradle you in My hands. I am your Abba. Only I know the hairs on your head, and the intentions in your heart of hearts. I am your Maker. A word of My mouth caused the days to turn to night so that you may rest. Find your rest in Me. Trust that I know what I am doing for you. Let go, I WILL catch it all. Rest on my promises. I am.
Tonight, I rest.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Multitude Monday...
...Of being lost in the moment with the ones I am blessed to hear call me mama...
...for a husbands faith
...for a quiet moment
...watching fruit ripen...of the soul and on the trees
...soft cheeks longing to be snuggled
...sunsets seen while laying on a bed of feathered emerald...so soft, so cool; how could we not bask in His creativity and goodness?
...for thoughtful moments
...soul sisters
...the privilege to be a good mans wife, my children teacher, and fully and deeply loved by the Creator.
...for belly laughs
...and a clean sink
..for all this and more
I am blessed. I am grateful.
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
Answered Prayers
I asked you all to join me and countless others in praying for Stellan. I DO believe there is great healing power in sincere unified prayer. I'd love it if you took a peek at what Our might God has done for MckMama and her family...Sweet Stellan
....I hope you never forget that we serve a living God, who listens. He is sovereign, He may not always answer according to our will and wishes, but He will always listen.
Qouting the Shack: "I'm especially fond of him"
He cares for each of us deeply...for you .....deeper then you can imagine, AND he has a grand plan with each of our names on it. I pray that we will all be vessels of His goodness like Stellan.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
MIA
I know I've been quiet here in bloggyland. I'm going to try and work it back into my schedule. The thing is I've really had to reassess my priorities, and my goals. I love blogging, but I also know I have a tenancy toward additive/obsessive behavior. So I've stepped back. From the Internet, the TV, the phone. I've removed a lot of the auxiliary distractions so I can focus my life on what I feel is it's purpose; Real authentic relationships.
First, with my sweet Savior who shows me his Mercy and astounding Grace daily. I have always chatted with Him. I've never been good at the pretty prayers. Our talks are much more conversational. I used to feel like that was wrong. If only I could focus better, study more, and speak more eloquently...if only. I have never liked praying out loud for that reason. Then while reading The Shack He gave me such a breath of fresh air. I felt such peace. He's my Savior, my Daddy, My Friend- my everything OF COURSE I can chat with Him. He wants a real meat and potatoes relationship with each of us.... rambling covos and all. He is my primary focus.
Then with my husband. There are many parts of our relationship that are growing and flourishing like all the lovely flowers this time of year. When I decided to be the wife God ordained me to be and step out of that place of control God really did step in. In so many ways we are stronger. My husbands faith is growing stronger as he tries to fully wrap his mind around the beautiful life changing concept of Grace. I'm loving every moment of his growth, but that doesn't mean that the issues we have as a couple just disappear. Some weeds it seems have very deep roots. But spring is here. In reality and in my soul so I'm doing some gardening. This takes time, time I would usually devote to my blog.
Next of course is my relationship with my children. When deciding to home school I didn't really realize how deeply it would change me. Through all my studying and preparations for this fall I have discovered that there are a few fundamental truths I had been ignoring. I think I've been a good mother- actually I pride myself on that fact BUT there is always room for improvement. My children are not people to be that I must control, and form with my own plan and labor.I don't always need to fret about the "man or woman" they will become. They are fully themselves and people just like I am now.I don't need to form them; God did that work- and He only creates masterpieces. If I truly believe that they are full of untold potential and capable of processing their own knowledge then I am not smarter or better then them just because I'm an adult. They crave knowledge and experience. That is what separates the adult from the child. Yelling doesn't give them either of those things, but fully authentic engaged relationships do. I'm not saying I was a checked out mom, but at times I've felt too overwhelmed to function. The thing is, that now that I see them in this new light of seekers of knowledge and experience things aren't so daunting. When Joan asked me where I've been I told her living, because that's where I am. Here in the moment living, enjoying my children, and loving almost every minute of it.
Finally, there is my relationship with all of you. My friends, my Sisters, my unknown readers. I want to be a great authentic friend and servant to you. I want to pray for your needs, and help where I can. I want us to grow both in our faith and our friendship. These times are scary. I want us to think of Christ as our bon fire. He will keep us warm as we sit focused on Him and wrapping each other tightly in blankets of prayer. Our unified praise will feed His presence. His light will be all we see, His grace and mercy will taste sweeter then marsh mellows ever could. But to enjoy this kind of moment I know I have to find a place to block the city lights and distractions.
So there you have it. To this purpose I have been MIA. I am seeking deeper relationships in living. In the here and now. They call it the present because it truly is a gift. Here is when my God works, here is where my marriage and family grow, and right now is when I'm reaching out my hand to you. Please pray for me in this endeavor and lifestyle adjustment. I am seeking balance over obsession. Thank you all, and hopefully it won't be too long before we chat again.
First, with my sweet Savior who shows me his Mercy and astounding Grace daily. I have always chatted with Him. I've never been good at the pretty prayers. Our talks are much more conversational. I used to feel like that was wrong. If only I could focus better, study more, and speak more eloquently...if only. I have never liked praying out loud for that reason. Then while reading The Shack He gave me such a breath of fresh air. I felt such peace. He's my Savior, my Daddy, My Friend- my everything OF COURSE I can chat with Him. He wants a real meat and potatoes relationship with each of us.... rambling covos and all. He is my primary focus.
Then with my husband. There are many parts of our relationship that are growing and flourishing like all the lovely flowers this time of year. When I decided to be the wife God ordained me to be and step out of that place of control God really did step in. In so many ways we are stronger. My husbands faith is growing stronger as he tries to fully wrap his mind around the beautiful life changing concept of Grace. I'm loving every moment of his growth, but that doesn't mean that the issues we have as a couple just disappear. Some weeds it seems have very deep roots. But spring is here. In reality and in my soul so I'm doing some gardening. This takes time, time I would usually devote to my blog.
Next of course is my relationship with my children. When deciding to home school I didn't really realize how deeply it would change me. Through all my studying and preparations for this fall I have discovered that there are a few fundamental truths I had been ignoring. I think I've been a good mother- actually I pride myself on that fact BUT there is always room for improvement. My children are not people to be that I must control, and form with my own plan and labor.I don't always need to fret about the "man or woman" they will become. They are fully themselves and people just like I am now.I don't need to form them; God did that work- and He only creates masterpieces. If I truly believe that they are full of untold potential and capable of processing their own knowledge then I am not smarter or better then them just because I'm an adult. They crave knowledge and experience. That is what separates the adult from the child. Yelling doesn't give them either of those things, but fully authentic engaged relationships do. I'm not saying I was a checked out mom, but at times I've felt too overwhelmed to function. The thing is, that now that I see them in this new light of seekers of knowledge and experience things aren't so daunting. When Joan asked me where I've been I told her living, because that's where I am. Here in the moment living, enjoying my children, and loving almost every minute of it.
Finally, there is my relationship with all of you. My friends, my Sisters, my unknown readers. I want to be a great authentic friend and servant to you. I want to pray for your needs, and help where I can. I want us to grow both in our faith and our friendship. These times are scary. I want us to think of Christ as our bon fire. He will keep us warm as we sit focused on Him and wrapping each other tightly in blankets of prayer. Our unified praise will feed His presence. His light will be all we see, His grace and mercy will taste sweeter then marsh mellows ever could. But to enjoy this kind of moment I know I have to find a place to block the city lights and distractions.
So there you have it. To this purpose I have been MIA. I am seeking deeper relationships in living. In the here and now. They call it the present because it truly is a gift. Here is when my God works, here is where my marriage and family grow, and right now is when I'm reaching out my hand to you. Please pray for me in this endeavor and lifestyle adjustment. I am seeking balance over obsession. Thank you all, and hopefully it won't be too long before we chat again.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Pray...
It's not often that all my blogs focus on one thing. I keep them separate for a reason. If you follow more then one of them forgive me the multiple posts. But tonight I'm begging you...believer to believer, mama to mama, friend to friend. please pray for Stellan and his family.
If you've never heard of him pop on over by clicking the button. His story is an amazing testament to what a mighty God we serve. Tonight, just like the last few nights I will be on my knees begging God to grant his mother strength to accept His will for her child, and pleading that he will be healed. Please join me and countless others....let our voices be one unified voice bringing this child to the Great Physician.
If you've never heard of him pop on over by clicking the button. His story is an amazing testament to what a mighty God we serve. Tonight, just like the last few nights I will be on my knees begging God to grant his mother strength to accept His will for her child, and pleading that he will be healed. Please join me and countless others....let our voices be one unified voice bringing this child to the Great Physician.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Seeing His hand.
My life has been chaotic. It has been exhausting. I have failed to do many things l've planned the last month. I've had sick kids, been a single-ish mom, and had many days where I've wept for the crosses people I love are baring. Now that may sound bad, but I will tell this...I have been seeing Gods hands at work.
I have cried out as He grab me close and calmed me down.
...It's just a moment, my love. You can do this for a moment.
I have seen Him mold hardships into His glory.
....my friends your faith and trust in His Will inspires me, and many others. Your acts of trust are bringing Him glory.
I have felt His call.
...we will be using Charlotte Mason next year for home schooling. I am intimidated by the curriculum but He is my masters so I will follow.
I have watched Him touch my husbands heart.
....Church is now a priority. He invited his best friend to attend with us (GASP!). He likes my christian music, and said he would go to a concert with me when I told him a few friends of ours just went. He is growing and his heart is turning to our King.
So in the chaos He is there, working. His hands are busier then a mother of 3 trying to conquer the world or just The leaning tower of dishes.....He is here, and I am grateful for His hands.
I have cried out as He grab me close and calmed me down.
Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand -Isaiah 41:10
I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand -Isaiah 41:10
...It's just a moment, my love. You can do this for a moment.
I have seen Him mold hardships into His glory.
For if we are faithful to the end, trusting God just as firmly as when
we first believed, we will share in all that belongs to Christ
-Hebrews 3:14
we first believed, we will share in all that belongs to Christ
-Hebrews 3:14
....my friends your faith and trust in His Will inspires me, and many others. Your acts of trust are bringing Him glory.
I have felt His call.
I will teach all your children, and they will enjoy great peace -Isaiah 54:13
Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.- Romans 12:2...we will be using Charlotte Mason next year for home schooling. I am intimidated by the curriculum but He is my masters so I will follow.
I have watched Him touch my husbands heart.
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due
season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.-Galatians 6:9
season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.-Galatians 6:9
....Church is now a priority. He invited his best friend to attend with us (GASP!). He likes my christian music, and said he would go to a concert with me when I told him a few friends of ours just went. He is growing and his heart is turning to our King.
So in the chaos He is there, working. His hands are busier then a mother of 3 trying to conquer the world or just The leaning tower of dishes.....He is here, and I am grateful for His hands.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Just a moment....
I wanted to share this excerpt from Max Lucado "It's not about ME" . I keep flagging sections to go back and read again. This particular section spoke so deeply to me:
The brevity of life grants power to abide, not an excuse to bail. Fleeting days don't justify fleeing problems. Fleeting days strengthen us to endure problems. Will your problems pass? No guarantee they will. Will your pain cease? Perhaps. Perhaps not. But heaven gives us this promise: "our light affliction, which is for but a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory" (2 Corinthians 4:17 nkjv)
The words "weight of glory" conjure up images of the ancient pan scale. Remember the blindfolded lady of justice? She holds a pan scale-two pans, one on either side of the needle. The weight of a purchase would be determined by placing weights on one side and the purchase on the other.
God does the same with your struggles, On one side He stacks all your burdens. Famines. Firings. Parents who forgot you. Bosses who ignore you.Bad breaks, bad health, bad days. Stack them up and watch one side of the pan scale plummet.
Now witness Gods response. Does He remove them? Eliminate the burdens? No, rather then take them, He offsets them. He places an eternal weight of glory on the other side. Endless joy. Measureless peace. An eternity of Him. Watch what happens when He sets eternity on your scale.
Everything changes! the burdens lift. The heavy becomes light when weighed against eternity. If life is "just a moment" can't we endure any challenge for a moment?
We can be sick for just a moment.
We can be lonely for just a moment.
We can be persecuted for just a moment.
We can struggle for just a moment.
Can't we?
Can't we wait for our peace? It's not about us anyway. And it's certainly not about now.
-It's not about Me
By Max Lucado
chapter 5 pg54-56
......reading that was like a light bulb moment for me. It's not easy to think of our HUGE issues as being just a moment within a moment, but it is....
All of it is only a moment. This earth, these bodies, they are not our home. He paid the price to assure that with His blood, the least I can do is accept His gift and humbly surrender every moment on this fleeting earth to Him, and His will.
The brevity of life grants power to abide, not an excuse to bail. Fleeting days don't justify fleeing problems. Fleeting days strengthen us to endure problems. Will your problems pass? No guarantee they will. Will your pain cease? Perhaps. Perhaps not. But heaven gives us this promise: "our light affliction, which is for but a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory" (2 Corinthians 4:17 nkjv)
The words "weight of glory" conjure up images of the ancient pan scale. Remember the blindfolded lady of justice? She holds a pan scale-two pans, one on either side of the needle. The weight of a purchase would be determined by placing weights on one side and the purchase on the other.
God does the same with your struggles, On one side He stacks all your burdens. Famines. Firings. Parents who forgot you. Bosses who ignore you.Bad breaks, bad health, bad days. Stack them up and watch one side of the pan scale plummet.
Now witness Gods response. Does He remove them? Eliminate the burdens? No, rather then take them, He offsets them. He places an eternal weight of glory on the other side. Endless joy. Measureless peace. An eternity of Him. Watch what happens when He sets eternity on your scale.
Everything changes! the burdens lift. The heavy becomes light when weighed against eternity. If life is "just a moment" can't we endure any challenge for a moment?
We can be sick for just a moment.
We can be lonely for just a moment.
We can be persecuted for just a moment.
We can struggle for just a moment.
Can't we?
Can't we wait for our peace? It's not about us anyway. And it's certainly not about now.
-It's not about Me
By Max Lucado
chapter 5 pg54-56
......reading that was like a light bulb moment for me. It's not easy to think of our HUGE issues as being just a moment within a moment, but it is....
All of it is only a moment. This earth, these bodies, they are not our home. He paid the price to assure that with His blood, the least I can do is accept His gift and humbly surrender every moment on this fleeting earth to Him, and His will.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
A letter from God...
...as He revealed to Max Lucado in Come Thirsty......
Dear Child of Mine,
Are you thirsty? Come and drink. I am one who comforts you. I bought you and complete you. I delight in you and claim you as my own, rejoicing over you as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride. I will never fail you or forsake you.1
You sometimes say, “The Lord has deserted us; the Lord has forgotten us.” But, can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for a child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I would not forget you! I paid for you with the precious lifeblood of Christ, my sinless, spotless Lamb. No one will snatch you away from me. See, I have written your name on my hand. I call you my friend. Why, the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are valuable to me.3
Give me your burdens, I will take care of you. I know how weak you are; that you are made of dust. Give all your worries and cares to me, for I care about what happens to you.4
So, don’t worry. I never tire or sleep. I stand beside you. My angels encamp around you. I hide you in the shelter of my presence. I will go ahead of you directing your steps and delighting in every detail of your life. If you stumble, you will not fall, for I hold you by the hand. I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.6
Wars will break out near and far, but don’t panic I have overcome the world. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. I surround you with a shield of love.7 I will make you fruitful in the land of suffering, trading beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, praise for despair. I live with the low-spirited and spirit crushed. I put new spirit in you and get you on your feet again. Weeping may go on all night, but joy comes with the morning. If I am for you, who can ever be against you?8
Your death is swallowed up in victory. I disarmed the evil rulers and authorities and broke the power of the Devil, who had the power of death. Blessed are those who die in the Lord. Your citizenship is in heaven. Come, inherit the Kingdom prepared for you where I will remove all of your sorrows, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.10
You are worried and troubled about many things; trust me with all your heart. I know how to rescue godly people from their trials. My Spirit helps you in your distress. Let me strengthen you with my glorious power. I did not spare my Son but gave him up for you. Won’t I give you everything else? March on, dear soul, with courage! Never give up. I will help you. I will uphold you.11
Remember, I am at hand. Come to me when you are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. I delight in you; and I can be trusted to keep my promise. Come and drink the water of life.12
Your Maker, Your Father,
God
(1 Isaiah 55:1, Isaiah 51:12, 1 Cor. 6:20, Col. 2:10, Isaiah 62:4-5, Hebrews 13:5 2 Deut. 32:10 MSG, Zeph. 3:17, Psalm 139:17-18, Romans 8:35 3 Isaiah 49:14-15, 1 Peter 1:19, John 10:28, Isaiah 49:16, Jn. 15:15, Matt. 10:29-31 4 Psalm 55:22, Psalm 103:13-14, 1 Peter 5:7 5 Isaiah 26:3-4, 1 Peter 2:25, Isaiah 43:2 6 Matt. 6:34, Psalm 121:3, Psalm 34:7, Psalm 31:20, Deut. 31:6, Psalm 37:23-24, Psalm 32:8 7 Matt. 24:6, John 16:33, Phil. 4:6, Psalm 5:12 8 Gen. 41:52, Isa. 61:1-3, Isa. 57:15, Psalm 30:5, Romans 8:31 9 Amos 5:12, 2 Cor. 12:9, Isa. 38:17, Micah 7:19, 1 Cor. 6:11, Isa. 44:22 10 1 Cor. 15:54, Col. 2:15, Heb. 2:14, Rev. 14:13, Phil. 3:20, Matt. 25:34, Rev. 21:4 11 Luke 10:41, Prov. 3:5, 2 Pet. 2:9, Rom. 8:26, Col. 1:11, Rom. 8:32, Judges 5:21, 2 Cor. 4:1, Isa. 41:10 12 Phi. 4:5, Matt. 11:28, Psalm 149:4, Heb. 10:23, Rev. 22:17)
Dwell in it loves, and let it wash over you today....
The God of the universe loves YOU like that....
That's a powerful, soul moving thought- and it truly is all the gospel truth.
Dear Child of Mine,
Are you thirsty? Come and drink. I am one who comforts you. I bought you and complete you. I delight in you and claim you as my own, rejoicing over you as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride. I will never fail you or forsake you.1
RECEIVE MY LOVE
You sometimes say, “The Lord has deserted us; the Lord has forgotten us.” But, can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she feel no love for a child she has borne? But even if that were possible, I would not forget you! I paid for you with the precious lifeblood of Christ, my sinless, spotless Lamb. No one will snatch you away from me. See, I have written your name on my hand. I call you my friend. Why, the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are valuable to me.3
Give me your burdens, I will take care of you. I know how weak you are; that you are made of dust. Give all your worries and cares to me, for I care about what happens to you.4
TRUST MY OVERSIGHT
So, don’t worry. I never tire or sleep. I stand beside you. My angels encamp around you. I hide you in the shelter of my presence. I will go ahead of you directing your steps and delighting in every detail of your life. If you stumble, you will not fall, for I hold you by the hand. I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.6
Wars will break out near and far, but don’t panic I have overcome the world. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. I surround you with a shield of love.7 I will make you fruitful in the land of suffering, trading beauty for ashes, joy for mourning, praise for despair. I live with the low-spirited and spirit crushed. I put new spirit in you and get you on your feet again. Weeping may go on all night, but joy comes with the morning. If I am for you, who can ever be against you?8
ACCEPT MY VICTORY
Your death is swallowed up in victory. I disarmed the evil rulers and authorities and broke the power of the Devil, who had the power of death. Blessed are those who die in the Lord. Your citizenship is in heaven. Come, inherit the Kingdom prepared for you where I will remove all of your sorrows, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain.10
RELY ON MY ENERGY
Remember, I am at hand. Come to me when you are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. I delight in you; and I can be trusted to keep my promise. Come and drink the water of life.12
Your Maker, Your Father,
God
(1 Isaiah 55:1, Isaiah 51:12, 1 Cor. 6:20, Col. 2:10, Isaiah 62:4-5, Hebrews 13:5 2 Deut. 32:10 MSG, Zeph. 3:17, Psalm 139:17-18, Romans 8:35 3 Isaiah 49:14-15, 1 Peter 1:19, John 10:28, Isaiah 49:16, Jn. 15:15, Matt. 10:29-31 4 Psalm 55:22, Psalm 103:13-14, 1 Peter 5:7 5 Isaiah 26:3-4, 1 Peter 2:25, Isaiah 43:2 6 Matt. 6:34, Psalm 121:3, Psalm 34:7, Psalm 31:20, Deut. 31:6, Psalm 37:23-24, Psalm 32:8 7 Matt. 24:6, John 16:33, Phil. 4:6, Psalm 5:12 8 Gen. 41:52, Isa. 61:1-3, Isa. 57:15, Psalm 30:5, Romans 8:31 9 Amos 5:12, 2 Cor. 12:9, Isa. 38:17, Micah 7:19, 1 Cor. 6:11, Isa. 44:22 10 1 Cor. 15:54, Col. 2:15, Heb. 2:14, Rev. 14:13, Phil. 3:20, Matt. 25:34, Rev. 21:4 11 Luke 10:41, Prov. 3:5, 2 Pet. 2:9, Rom. 8:26, Col. 1:11, Rom. 8:32, Judges 5:21, 2 Cor. 4:1, Isa. 41:10 12 Phi. 4:5, Matt. 11:28, Psalm 149:4, Heb. 10:23, Rev. 22:17)
Dwell in it loves, and let it wash over you today....
The God of the universe loves YOU like that....
That's a powerful, soul moving thought- and it truly is all the gospel truth.
Monday, February 23, 2009
M &M's and Other treats....
Last week was a mixed bag for me.
I did manage to memorize Hebrews 10:23-25, but my plan for nightly meditation was a complete flop. I kept falling asleep on the couch fully exhausted from taking care of sick babies, and trying to keep my household together. I figure God will honor my efforts, AND I must have thought about it enough to memorize it...so that kinda counts right????
Oh Bother....No more excuses.....
What I did glean from my brief meditation in it was great. I realized that these verses are almost like my personal mission statement. This is the believer I want to be all the time.
I want to hold on to my God TIGHTLY without wavering, trusting Him alone. The power of that thought is huge for me. I often struggle with fully trusting Him. I know He will protect, love, shelter, and provide for me... I know that because he promised it. But, I often find myself trying to figure it out on my own. This week it dawned on me that every time I seek MY understanding it's like I'm wavering. hmmmm....wow.....
I kept picturing Abby walking on the side walk near the road.She keeps looking cross-ways towards me (almost daring me), then testing her boundaries she steps into the road. Luckily, I see what she can not and I grab her as a car flies past. Two things happen. First, I am so grateful I could save her. She's more precious to me then any worldly possession. Then, I feel her squeeze a little tighter, and I hope that this time she's learned her lesson. The way I am about my kids- it's how Our Daddy is about us. What He would give for us to just trust Him and reach for His hand, and not blindly seek our own way. Yet, He's so good that even when we do waver and step into danger He is there to sweep us up. I need to reach for Him, and not let go before even taking one step...He will keep his promises.
I want to encourage and motivate my fellow believers. I want to show my faith in all aspects of my life by showing kindness and love. I want to gather my village (much more then I do now). I don't want to wait for the right moment, or a clean house, or whatever any more. I want to do these things without thought. I want it to flow naturally from me so that others will see that the Grace of God does set you free. I want to share my faith by example because sometimes people only respond to a whisper. I know the day of His return is drawing near and I really want to see everyone I love at His side.
So yes, even in my fast food meditation He called to me. This is the believer I want to be.
This weeks M&M verse is:
I did manage to memorize Hebrews 10:23-25, but my plan for nightly meditation was a complete flop. I kept falling asleep on the couch fully exhausted from taking care of sick babies, and trying to keep my household together. I figure God will honor my efforts, AND I must have thought about it enough to memorize it...so that kinda counts right????
Oh Bother....No more excuses.....
What I did glean from my brief meditation in it was great. I realized that these verses are almost like my personal mission statement. This is the believer I want to be all the time.
I want to hold on to my God TIGHTLY without wavering, trusting Him alone. The power of that thought is huge for me. I often struggle with fully trusting Him. I know He will protect, love, shelter, and provide for me... I know that because he promised it. But, I often find myself trying to figure it out on my own. This week it dawned on me that every time I seek MY understanding it's like I'm wavering. hmmmm....wow.....
I kept picturing Abby walking on the side walk near the road.She keeps looking cross-ways towards me (almost daring me), then testing her boundaries she steps into the road. Luckily, I see what she can not and I grab her as a car flies past. Two things happen. First, I am so grateful I could save her. She's more precious to me then any worldly possession. Then, I feel her squeeze a little tighter, and I hope that this time she's learned her lesson. The way I am about my kids- it's how Our Daddy is about us. What He would give for us to just trust Him and reach for His hand, and not blindly seek our own way. Yet, He's so good that even when we do waver and step into danger He is there to sweep us up. I need to reach for Him, and not let go before even taking one step...He will keep his promises.
I want to encourage and motivate my fellow believers. I want to show my faith in all aspects of my life by showing kindness and love. I want to gather my village (much more then I do now). I don't want to wait for the right moment, or a clean house, or whatever any more. I want to do these things without thought. I want it to flow naturally from me so that others will see that the Grace of God does set you free. I want to share my faith by example because sometimes people only respond to a whisper. I know the day of His return is drawing near and I really want to see everyone I love at His side.
So yes, even in my fast food meditation He called to me. This is the believer I want to be.
This weeks M&M verse is:
Do everything readily and cheerfully—no bickering, no second-guessing allowed!
-Philippians 2:14 (MSG)
... as for those other tasty treats....
For those of you that don't follow my other blog I'd like to share a praise report. We WILL be homeschooling next year. Just today my Hubby asked what our school name is going to be so he can think about a logo. He's behind me 100% now in this endeavor, and that's all God work for you. If you'd like to track our home school journey you can find it here: Rough Draft.
Also please continue to keep Jay in your prayers.God is working mightily through them (he is starting to work on seeking his personal truth and relationship with God), yet there are always those days that discouragement seeps into my thoughts.
Thank you for your prayers, and know that each and everyday I am praying for you. Please don't ever hesitate to let me know how I can specifically pray for you, I fully believe there is an extra oomph in the specifics!
-Philippians 2:14 (MSG)
... as for those other tasty treats....
For those of you that don't follow my other blog I'd like to share a praise report. We WILL be homeschooling next year. Just today my Hubby asked what our school name is going to be so he can think about a logo. He's behind me 100% now in this endeavor, and that's all God work for you. If you'd like to track our home school journey you can find it here: Rough Draft.
Also please continue to keep Jay in your prayers.God is working mightily through them (he is starting to work on seeking his personal truth and relationship with God), yet there are always those days that discouragement seeps into my thoughts.
Thank you for your prayers, and know that each and everyday I am praying for you. Please don't ever hesitate to let me know how I can specifically pray for you, I fully believe there is an extra oomph in the specifics!
Monday, February 16, 2009
More from Mondays!
I have decided to start doing M&M Mondays.....what's that you say?
Something way sweeter then Mars could ever dream up, I'll tell you that!
My dear friend Joan wrote about God's recipe for success last week and it got me thinking. What can I do to help me be ever present in His Word. So I borrowed her prayer and I prayed:
Lord, I pray that Your definition of success is what I will seek after. May I look into Your Word to follow the path You have set before me. May I become a successful woman who knows Your Word, loves Your Word, and lives Your Word.
...then yesterday he gave me this idea.
......Memorization....
I have hidden your word in my heart,
that I might not sin against you.
-Psalms 119:11
.....and Meditation......
I rise before the dawning of the morning,
And cry for help; I hope in Your word.
My eyes are awake through the night watches,
That I may meditate on Your word.
Hear my voice according to Your loving kindness;
O LORD, revive me according to Your justice.
-Psalms 119:147-149
....actually all of Psalms 119 is a testament to this practice.
I can't think of a sweeter way to start my week then digesting HIS M&M's.
It is suggested that people who meditate live longer, healthier lives.That is great. But, I want to safe guard my spirit too. So here is my plan:
Every Monday I will choose a Bible verse that is relevant to my life. Then I will print it and post it around my house. That way I see it for my fast food moments. But every night after my prayers I plan to meditate solely on the verse, relaxing, taking deep cleansing breaths and allowing The Spirit to wash over me. I will then re-post the following Monday what He has revealed through His word, and choose a new verse.
I hope you will join me on this and share your personal verses, and revelations. I think it will be awesome to see how our Daddy speaks to us when we give Him our full attention.
Here is a link on Biblical Mediation. It's a long read but full of wonderful incite, and things to chew on.
My Verses for this week:
Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise. Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near
-Hebrews 10:23-25
Something way sweeter then Mars could ever dream up, I'll tell you that!
My dear friend Joan wrote about God's recipe for success last week and it got me thinking. What can I do to help me be ever present in His Word. So I borrowed her prayer and I prayed:
Lord, I pray that Your definition of success is what I will seek after. May I look into Your Word to follow the path You have set before me. May I become a successful woman who knows Your Word, loves Your Word, and lives Your Word.
...then yesterday he gave me this idea.
......Memorization....
I have hidden your word in my heart,
that I might not sin against you.
-Psalms 119:11
.....and Meditation......
I rise before the dawning of the morning,
And cry for help; I hope in Your word.
My eyes are awake through the night watches,
That I may meditate on Your word.
Hear my voice according to Your loving kindness;
O LORD, revive me according to Your justice.
-Psalms 119:147-149
....actually all of Psalms 119 is a testament to this practice.
I can't think of a sweeter way to start my week then digesting HIS M&M's.
It is suggested that people who meditate live longer, healthier lives.That is great. But, I want to safe guard my spirit too. So here is my plan:
Every Monday I will choose a Bible verse that is relevant to my life. Then I will print it and post it around my house. That way I see it for my fast food moments. But every night after my prayers I plan to meditate solely on the verse, relaxing, taking deep cleansing breaths and allowing The Spirit to wash over me. I will then re-post the following Monday what He has revealed through His word, and choose a new verse.
I hope you will join me on this and share your personal verses, and revelations. I think it will be awesome to see how our Daddy speaks to us when we give Him our full attention.
Here is a link on Biblical Mediation. It's a long read but full of wonderful incite, and things to chew on.
My Verses for this week:
Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise. Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near
-Hebrews 10:23-25
Saturday, February 14, 2009
So this is Love...
some love letters I have gratefully received:
For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
-Zephaniah 3:17
“Never! Can a mother forget her nursing child?
Can she feel no love for the child she has borne?
But even if that were possible,
I would not forget you!
Can she feel no love for the child she has borne?
But even if that were possible,
I would not forget you!
-Isaiah 49:15
The LORD has appeared of old to me, saying:
“ Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love;
Therefore with loving kindness I have drawn you.
This is real love—
not that we loved God,
but that he loved us
and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.
The LORD has appeared of old to me, saying:
“ Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love;
Therefore with loving kindness I have drawn you.
-Jeremiah 31:3
This is real love—
not that we loved God,
but that he loved us
and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.
-1 John 4:10
......Oh yes, this is Love....
Happy Valentines Day!
Happy Valentines Day!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Thoughts on Water.....
Forgive me if this isn't well written or eloquent....I have sat down and pondered (and prayed) how to place my thoughts in a cohesive manner...I have so much going on in my brain right now....so much spirit led growth happening....I'm being continually watered.... yet this is my 5th time trying to get it all to make sense here. So tonight I'm letting the Spirit lead...come what may.
I've been overwhelmed by references to water. His Living Water.
I've been overwhelmed by references to water. His Living Water.
Whoever drinks the water I give will never be thirsty.
The water I give will become a spring of
water GUSHING up inside that person, giving eternal life
-John 4:14
Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.
1 Timothy 1:13-15
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.
Romans 5:1-6
The water is there. To cleanse us, to nourish us, to bless us. It is ALWAYS there, because He is always there (Hebrews 13:5) in all ways.
You are acquainted with physical thirst. Stop drinking and see what happens. Coherent thoughts vanish, skin grows clammy, and vital organs shut down. Deprive your soul of spiritual water, and it will tell you. Snarling tempers. Waves of worry. Growing guilt and fear. But you don't have to live with a dehydrated heart. God invites you to treat your thirsty soul. Just visit the WELL and drink deeply. Receive Christ's work on the cross, The energy of His spirit, His lordship over your life. and his unending, unfailing Love.
....it's just highlighter holding, head nodding, heart speaking, deep prayer leading soul food.
I will show you. I will lead you, and He did.
This A.W. Tozer prayer from The Pursuit of God
The water I give will become a spring of
water GUSHING up inside that person, giving eternal life
-John 4:14
I have spent so long parched, saved yet stationary- just steps from The Well...too scared to move, too embarrassed to drink greedily. What was I thinking????
Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignorance and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out on me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Christ Jesus.Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.
1 Timothy 1:13-15
I am making up for lost time. I am consuming all the water I can. I am drinking Him in. Not just in the Word but in my life, in my actions. I want to show those I love that their thirsts- the ones they can not name. The ones that drive them to anger, to worry, to fear, to addictions, and ultimately to emptiness CAN be quenched. Change can come through the Living Water.
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.
Romans 5:1-6
The water is there. To cleanse us, to nourish us, to bless us. It is ALWAYS there, because He is always there (Hebrews 13:5) in all ways.
Right now, I sit here amazed at the work He is doing in me, and through me. My family life, although never perfect has improved. I am a better mother and wife then I have ever been. Everyday I pray that God will lead my day, give me patience, change me, and make me willing to be willing. Some days are of course better then others, but even on my worst days I know I have taken a sip from the Living Well. So, when I wake up the next morning my mouth is not dry. I don't need to worry about yesterday's drained spirit, because today I can drink my fill. The cleansing waters of redemption never run dry...so I will drink.... fully, and deeply as often as I can.
There have been a few AMAZING resources and incites that have washed over me this week, and helped me to understand how to stand at His WELL and drink, pray and drink some more:
I just finished reading Come Thirsty By Max Lucado.
It's amazing! If you are not familiar with his writing you should check him out, he is Blessed. I'm sure this is where my obsession with The Water came from .The excerpt from the jacket reads:
I just finished reading Come Thirsty By Max Lucado.
It's amazing! If you are not familiar with his writing you should check him out, he is Blessed. I'm sure this is where my obsession with The Water came from .The excerpt from the jacket reads:
You are acquainted with physical thirst. Stop drinking and see what happens. Coherent thoughts vanish, skin grows clammy, and vital organs shut down. Deprive your soul of spiritual water, and it will tell you. Snarling tempers. Waves of worry. Growing guilt and fear. But you don't have to live with a dehydrated heart. God invites you to treat your thirsty soul. Just visit the WELL and drink deeply. Receive Christ's work on the cross, The energy of His spirit, His lordship over your life. and his unending, unfailing Love.
....it's just highlighter holding, head nodding, heart speaking, deep prayer leading soul food.
My dear friend Nikki wrote this wonderful moving blog. When I read it God prompted me back to this 5th try at posting, and told me He would lead me.
Come just as you are before your God......Come (and drink) He whispered. I will show you. I will lead you, and He did.
This A.W. Tozer prayer from The Pursuit of God
"O God, I have tasted of Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace.I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing;
I thirst to be made more thirsty."
Oh and as always Ann Voskamp gives these posts to ponder:
Imbibe Deeply,Joy Thirst, How to Find Joy
...She is another divinely gifted writer that God uses to speak to me OFTEN.
Drink up, my friends!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
A song to break the cold
....my alarm chimes, and chimes again. My eyes open, and yet I do not move. Once again I am greeted by the bitter cold. Once again I am lured to stay in bed. It has been this way for a week now, and I'm beginning to feel the unrest. I do not drift back to sleep. I still chose to meet with my maker, but it's been a one way conversation...cold and needy the last few mornings. I've neglected to go to His word and listen.
The cold is a test.
Will I let it touch my bones and seep into my words and actions?
Or will I run to the light, and the warmth of my redeemer?
As I lay in bed clinging to the warmth of my prayers and my sheets, a still small voice begins singing. Singing words only a mother can decipher. Lyrics that have been jumbled about and personalized, and yet their truth rings clearly in my ears.....
Yes, Jesus loves Abby- my morning child. Since the day she way born she has raced the sun to rise. Since she has learned to sing rising with this song in her heart. Warmth fills my bones as she snuggles in close, I hum along.
Yes, Jesus loves you- My faithful friends. My prayer warriors. My fellow believers. Even in these dark cold days, when all seems bleak He is there. He has plans for you. As I lifted you up in prayer this morning I clung to that promise for you. I focused on the way that light casts away all dark. A single person may feel cold BUT add just a few more and suddenly the air is warmer and the chill is gone. So as I lay snuggled in to listen to this serenade, I laid another blanket over you this morning, one that may not be seen but only felt. He will warm you.
Yes, Jesus loves me- As I strive to honor Him. When I am good, and when I feel I fail. When I master my anger, and when I kick my child's dresser in frustration. When I am able to hear Him, and when I have on ear muffs thinking I can block the cold on my own. When I meet Him in the wee morning hours, or in fast food moments through out the day. He loves me. He warms me. He causes the only alarm clock that guarantees me to move to let out a squeal of hungry zest. She for one is ready to greet the day with a warm breakfast. As I finally leave my bed I know He loves me....even then.
For the mountains may move
and the hills disappear,
but even then my faithful love for you will remain.
My covenant of blessing will never be broken,
says the Lord, who has mercy on you.
-Isaiah 54:10 (NLT)
My answer is clear. To my Father I will run. His warmth is all I need. His faithful love, mercy and patience I will cling to.
Thank you God for that still small voice to remind me of Your love. Thank You for honoring my efforts and forgiving my failures. Help me to warm my children's hearts, so that they see You in my reactions- instead of the frigid cold and space between us that anger brings. I love you. Amen.
Video notes: I took this of Abby AFTER we left the inviting warmth of our bed. Funny but her voice warms me just the same.
The cold is a test.
Will I let it touch my bones and seep into my words and actions?
Or will I run to the light, and the warmth of my redeemer?
As I lay in bed clinging to the warmth of my prayers and my sheets, a still small voice begins singing. Singing words only a mother can decipher. Lyrics that have been jumbled about and personalized, and yet their truth rings clearly in my ears.....
Yes, Jesus loves Abby- my morning child. Since the day she way born she has raced the sun to rise. Since she has learned to sing rising with this song in her heart. Warmth fills my bones as she snuggles in close, I hum along.
Yes, Jesus loves you- My faithful friends. My prayer warriors. My fellow believers. Even in these dark cold days, when all seems bleak He is there. He has plans for you. As I lifted you up in prayer this morning I clung to that promise for you. I focused on the way that light casts away all dark. A single person may feel cold BUT add just a few more and suddenly the air is warmer and the chill is gone. So as I lay snuggled in to listen to this serenade, I laid another blanket over you this morning, one that may not be seen but only felt. He will warm you.
Yes, Jesus loves me- As I strive to honor Him. When I am good, and when I feel I fail. When I master my anger, and when I kick my child's dresser in frustration. When I am able to hear Him, and when I have on ear muffs thinking I can block the cold on my own. When I meet Him in the wee morning hours, or in fast food moments through out the day. He loves me. He warms me. He causes the only alarm clock that guarantees me to move to let out a squeal of hungry zest. She for one is ready to greet the day with a warm breakfast. As I finally leave my bed I know He loves me....even then.
The Bible tells me so:
For the mountains may move
and the hills disappear,
but even then my faithful love for you will remain.
My covenant of blessing will never be broken,
says the Lord, who has mercy on you.
-Isaiah 54:10 (NLT)
My answer is clear. To my Father I will run. His warmth is all I need. His faithful love, mercy and patience I will cling to.
Thank you God for that still small voice to remind me of Your love. Thank You for honoring my efforts and forgiving my failures. Help me to warm my children's hearts, so that they see You in my reactions- instead of the frigid cold and space between us that anger brings. I love you. Amen.
Video notes: I took this of Abby AFTER we left the inviting warmth of our bed. Funny but her voice warms me just the same.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
I'm Listening
This year I think my hearing has improved....or maybe, just maybe I have learned to listen.
I'm a talker by nature. I want to show people I empathize with them and feel where they are coming from. So I talk, often when I feel like I should just shut up and listen. If I have ever done this to you- please forgive me and know that it helps me process your words by talking, so I do hear you. Still, I need to accept the quiet and listen.
I know this is true because this year God has been talking to me. Maybe this is not a new thing, maybe my self-talk has always drowned him out before, maybe I didn't see the message so neatly packaged. I don't know what hindered me in the past, but I do know that it was just that- the past.
Now I see Him in my daily life. I hear His words of affirmation and I am grateful. I follow His lead.
I have always struggled with my anger in parenting, and in life. So God gives me Psalms 86:15 to cling too. He also sends these wonderful Non-tutorials, and further encouragement my way ALL THE time. I want to be that parent....last night I chose the still small voice of patience, over my old BF anger...the look in my child's eyes said volumes.
I pray and stress over my marriage not being "equally yolked" all the time. I mentioned it in CBS yesterday and the WONDERFUL women in my core group immediately gave me these verses....
1 Peter 3:1-4
1Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Corinthians 7:13-14
And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. 14For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
....yes Lord I am listening. Thank You for Your grace, love and mercy. Thank You for calming my heart. I am a changed being, and I am listening.
God is using
I'm a talker by nature. I want to show people I empathize with them and feel where they are coming from. So I talk, often when I feel like I should just shut up and listen. If I have ever done this to you- please forgive me and know that it helps me process your words by talking, so I do hear you. Still, I need to accept the quiet and listen.
I know this is true because this year God has been talking to me. Maybe this is not a new thing, maybe my self-talk has always drowned him out before, maybe I didn't see the message so neatly packaged. I don't know what hindered me in the past, but I do know that it was just that- the past.
Now I see Him in my daily life. I hear His words of affirmation and I am grateful. I follow His lead.
I have always struggled with my anger in parenting, and in life. So God gives me Psalms 86:15 to cling too. He also sends these wonderful Non-tutorials, and further encouragement my way ALL THE time. I want to be that parent....last night I chose the still small voice of patience, over my old BF anger...the look in my child's eyes said volumes.
I pray and stress over my marriage not being "equally yolked" all the time. I mentioned it in CBS yesterday and the WONDERFUL women in my core group immediately gave me these verses....
1 Peter 3:1-4
1Wives, in the same way be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Corinthians 7:13-14
And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. 14For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her believing husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
....yes Lord I am listening. Thank You for Your grace, love and mercy. Thank You for calming my heart. I am a changed being, and I am listening.
God is using
Monday, January 26, 2009
Prayer
...ok so I'm about to be a little mysterious BUT I need your help all the same.
Will you pray for God to guide Jay and I. We have an important decision to make together and I want it to be God led. Once we make a decision I will share the fruits of your prayers....
Thank you dear friends!
Will you pray for God to guide Jay and I. We have an important decision to make together and I want it to be God led. Once we make a decision I will share the fruits of your prayers....
Thank you dear friends!
Friday, January 23, 2009
God has a sense of humor
.....I'm having a total LOL moment right now.....who ever said God doesn't have a sense of humor? Ok, let me explain....
The last week I've been getting up at (gasp) 6 am. Now I know for most people this is a mundane event, but for me it was like God moving a mountain. I have always hated mornings. My favorite animal is an owl...need I say more?
Well for the past few days I have been feeling like 6 just isn't early enough, but the thought of anything earlier was just too overwhelming to me. I kept trying to head talk my way into sleeping more. I kept ignoring the earlier alarm clock. So yesterday I prayed for his guidance on the issue. I needed His affirmation, after all getting up at 6 had assured I get my day started in Him and His word. I just had a few other things I wanted to check off my day before things got to awake and hectic around here. Well this morning God showed me His sense of humor.
...I wake up to a sweet baby screaming bloody murder. I go to her and see tears streaming down her sweet chunky cheeks. She has just started doing two things. Sleeping completely through the night (can I get an amen), and refusing to nurse. See normally I'd cradle her in my arms and nurse her; lulling us both back to sleep. Now I have to warm a bottle, prepare it, feed her, wash the bottle, and finally pump to refill my stash... whew! It's a lot of work. Would you like to know what time this all occurred? 5 am..... Oh yes, he does answer prayers with a sense of humor. By 5:15 she was blissfully back asleep. I put on a pot of coffee, pumped and prayed.
By the time I finished my CBS study for today I was fully awake with a case of the giggles.
God has taken this night owl and made an early bird. You know the saying the early bird gets the worm? Well my worms are bits of assurances, and knowledge. Fuel for my day. Things I wouldn't be able to focus on in the busy hustle and bustle of raising a family.. an inner peace that I can greet my family with when they wake up. I am a better woman, wife and mother when I can start my day grounded in the word- praying for His hand to guide me, and His presence to be known.
I thought this weeks CBS verse was funny too. Not in a real haha way but in that God is so good way. It's psalms 86:15
That's what I want for my life. I want to be that parent too. I just finished reading Love and Logic the early years ( I have been practicing the L&L parenting style for some time now) and it made me laugh when I realized God uses the L&L technique with us!
What a fun way to start my morning....laughing with my Savior, I think today can only get better from here.
The last week I've been getting up at (gasp) 6 am. Now I know for most people this is a mundane event, but for me it was like God moving a mountain. I have always hated mornings. My favorite animal is an owl...need I say more?
Well for the past few days I have been feeling like 6 just isn't early enough, but the thought of anything earlier was just too overwhelming to me. I kept trying to head talk my way into sleeping more. I kept ignoring the earlier alarm clock. So yesterday I prayed for his guidance on the issue. I needed His affirmation, after all getting up at 6 had assured I get my day started in Him and His word. I just had a few other things I wanted to check off my day before things got to awake and hectic around here. Well this morning God showed me His sense of humor.
...I wake up to a sweet baby screaming bloody murder. I go to her and see tears streaming down her sweet chunky cheeks. She has just started doing two things. Sleeping completely through the night (can I get an amen), and refusing to nurse. See normally I'd cradle her in my arms and nurse her; lulling us both back to sleep. Now I have to warm a bottle, prepare it, feed her, wash the bottle, and finally pump to refill my stash... whew! It's a lot of work. Would you like to know what time this all occurred? 5 am..... Oh yes, he does answer prayers with a sense of humor. By 5:15 she was blissfully back asleep. I put on a pot of coffee, pumped and prayed.
By the time I finished my CBS study for today I was fully awake with a case of the giggles.
God has taken this night owl and made an early bird. You know the saying the early bird gets the worm? Well my worms are bits of assurances, and knowledge. Fuel for my day. Things I wouldn't be able to focus on in the busy hustle and bustle of raising a family.. an inner peace that I can greet my family with when they wake up. I am a better woman, wife and mother when I can start my day grounded in the word- praying for His hand to guide me, and His presence to be known.
I thought this weeks CBS verse was funny too. Not in a real haha way but in that God is so good way. It's psalms 86:15
But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
That's what I want for my life. I want to be that parent too. I just finished reading Love and Logic the early years ( I have been practicing the L&L parenting style for some time now) and it made me laugh when I realized God uses the L&L technique with us!
What a fun way to start my morning....laughing with my Savior, I think today can only get better from here.
Friday, January 16, 2009
an early bird?
...here, right now it is 6 am. For the VERY first time this year I am up as I planned. My CBS study is done for the day, I have spent time in prayerful communion with my Savior, and I have won a small battle. Yesterday I was tested, but my resolve is firm...I will not be shaken, I will keep walking- one step, two steps closer to Jesus. I could feel your prayers leading me along, helping me recall which foot needed to move next- closer still. He has cradled me in His hands. He has promised me much and I know he will deliver if I remain focused on Him....if I can be patient .
Patient with His will, and patient with the everyday. That was my lesson. Stop focusing on what is. Without my sweet savior none of it will ever make sense. I must be patient and He will make His will known. He was, and IS, and Will be....He is my everything. Without Him I have nothing. So I must wait and listen. I must learn to be patient.... that's going to be a hard one. But, with God all things are possible right?
Thank you for your continued prayers and know that I am lifting you up too. We are in trying times and we need all the prayers and support we can get.
Thank you Father for revealing yourself to me. Please change my outlook- Help me to be more patient in all I do. I know that You will help us, You will sustain us- even cause us to prosper. You will always keep your word even if the way seems so unclear to me. Please direct my day and let my light shine as a beacon to You. help me to change so that I may bear witness to Your greatness. I love you. Amen.
Patient with His will, and patient with the everyday. That was my lesson. Stop focusing on what is. Without my sweet savior none of it will ever make sense. I must be patient and He will make His will known. He was, and IS, and Will be....He is my everything. Without Him I have nothing. So I must wait and listen. I must learn to be patient.... that's going to be a hard one. But, with God all things are possible right?
Thank you for your continued prayers and know that I am lifting you up too. We are in trying times and we need all the prayers and support we can get.
Thank you Father for revealing yourself to me. Please change my outlook- Help me to be more patient in all I do. I know that You will help us, You will sustain us- even cause us to prosper. You will always keep your word even if the way seems so unclear to me. Please direct my day and let my light shine as a beacon to You. help me to change so that I may bear witness to Your greatness. I love you. Amen.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Overwhelmed by the ordinary
Today the ordinary is bogging me down. I feel so overwhelmed. So here I am, coming to you all and requesting prayer. I don't want to be a burden, but if you could pray that the Lord will grant me His peace that would be awesome. I know that he will take care of everything. I stated before that I think this year is going to be pivotal in the faith and lives of my family. As I am steadfast in prayer, I also know the enemy is trying to derail my efforts, and confuse my mind. These struggles are his doing, these feelings are of him, NOT my sweet Jesus. I know that and yet....please pray for me.
This song brought me to tears in the car today (it's in my playlist, if you haven't herd it):
Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.
I am claiming this song, Isaiah 46:4 and Jeremiah 29:11 today...
...He will help me, He will sustain me, He will rescue me, He will give me hope.... of these confidences I pray.
This song brought me to tears in the car today (it's in my playlist, if you haven't herd it):
Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.
I am claiming this song, Isaiah 46:4 and Jeremiah 29:11 today...
...He will help me, He will sustain me, He will rescue me, He will give me hope.... of these confidences I pray.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Bible Questions
First Thanks Girls for all your suggestions about when you read, and reassurances that He will honor my efforts.
I've been saved for so long, but over the last 3 years I've been striving to understand him more deeply. I'm asking you to hold my hand and lift me up. Never before have I had the yearning to pursue Him so passionately, and it's making me feel vulnerable. I know I posted before about what your support and prayers mean to me, but I'd like to reiterate now that I am SO thankful to have your brains to pick, and words to chew on.
Finally I'd like to offer up a question for those of you who may be more versed in the word then I am. When doing my chronological reading this morning I came across this passage:
I've been saved for so long, but over the last 3 years I've been striving to understand him more deeply. I'm asking you to hold my hand and lift me up. Never before have I had the yearning to pursue Him so passionately, and it's making me feel vulnerable. I know I posted before about what your support and prayers mean to me, but I'd like to reiterate now that I am SO thankful to have your brains to pick, and words to chew on.
Finally I'd like to offer up a question for those of you who may be more versed in the word then I am. When doing my chronological reading this morning I came across this passage:
Genesis 6
1And it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born unto them,2That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose. 3And the LORD said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years.4There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown.
....am I reading this right? Because I've never noticed this before. Is this referring to fallen angels or something else?
I thought angels are supposed to be androgynous.
...any thoughts you might have would be awesome. Thanks dear ones!
I am there
I "borrowed" this from someone who is like a sister to me. She keeps her blog private, and her personal life the same so I won't share her info. BUT, I will tell you that she is a wonderful source of encouragement to me. She's a wonderful mom, friend, and Christian and I feel blessed to be held close to her heart....and reminded that HE holds us close as well......
I Am There
-James Dillet Freeman
I Am There
Do you need Me?
I am there.
You cannot see Me, yet I am the light you see by.
You cannot hear Me, yet I speak through your voice.
You cannot feel Me, yet I am the power at work in your hands.
I am at work, though you do not understand My ways.
I am at work, though you do not recognize My works.
I am not strange visions. I am not mysteries.
Only in absolute stillness, beyond self, can you know
Me as I am, and then but as a feeling and a faith.
Yet I am there. Yet I hear. Yet I answer.
When you need Me, I am there.
Even if you deny Me, I am there.
Even when you feel most alone, I am there.
Even in your fears, I am there.
Even in your pain, I am there.
I am there when you pray and when you do not pray.
I am in you, and you are in Me.
Only in your mind can you feel separate from Me, for
only in your mind are the mists of "yours" and "mine."
Yet only with your mind can you know Me and experience Me.
Empty your heart of empty fears.
When you get yourself out of the way, I am there.
You can of yourself do nothing, but I can do all.
And I am in all.
Though you may not see the good, good is there, for I am there.
I am there because I have to be, because I am.
Only in Me does the world have meaning, only out of
Me does the world take form;
only because of Me does the world go forward.
I am the law on which the movement of the stars and
the growth of living cells are founded.
I am the love that is the law's fulfilling.
I am assurance.
I am peace.
I am oneness.
I am the law that you can live by.
I am the love that you can cling to.
I am your assurance.
I am your peace.
I am one with you.
I am.
Though you fail to find Me, I do not fail you.
Though your faith in Me is unsure, My faith in you
never wavers, because I know you, because I love you.
Beloved, I am there.
-James Dillet Freeman
Thursday, January 08, 2009
Read your Bible, Pray everyday...
Do you remember that Sunday school song that went:
Read your Bible, pray everyday, pray everyday, pray everyday
Read your Bible, pray everyday and you'll grow grow grow.....
We I'm great about the pray everyday thing. I pray everyday all day... Gods my true BFF so I'm never lonely.
I'm having a hard time finding a quiet moment to focus, meditate and dwell in the Word. I lost my CBS booklet so I haven't been able to do that. I'm trying to read the Bible in chronological order but so far I've only read Chapter 1 of Genesis. I wish I was a morning person, but even if I were; I still don't think I'd beat Abby up. The girls biological clock is set for the 5 o'clock hour rain, or shine. I try and do it during their nap times but the girls are on off schedules right now. Nights are good but I can't seem to focus. So I thought before I set out to tidy the house tonight I'd pick your brains ....I'm trying to grow, grow grow over here so help a sister out.......when do you read your Bibles?
Read your Bible, pray everyday, pray everyday, pray everyday
Read your Bible, pray everyday and you'll grow grow grow.....
We I'm great about the pray everyday thing. I pray everyday all day... Gods my true BFF so I'm never lonely.
I'm having a hard time finding a quiet moment to focus, meditate and dwell in the Word. I lost my CBS booklet so I haven't been able to do that. I'm trying to read the Bible in chronological order but so far I've only read Chapter 1 of Genesis. I wish I was a morning person, but even if I were; I still don't think I'd beat Abby up. The girls biological clock is set for the 5 o'clock hour rain, or shine. I try and do it during their nap times but the girls are on off schedules right now. Nights are good but I can't seem to focus. So I thought before I set out to tidy the house tonight I'd pick your brains ....I'm trying to grow, grow grow over here so help a sister out.......when do you read your Bibles?
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
NEW YEAR!
New Year.....new point of view....
I've been doing some deep cleaning this last week. In my house, in my soul, and in my mind. Letting go of all those things that seem to pile up. Finding new ways to organize the insanity and find happiness and peace in the chaos. I have to say my house looks G-R-E-A-T! Jay and I have deep cleaned almost every nook and cranny. It feels good. It's also felt great to have him working right beside me. I couldn't help but feel the shift in him as 2008 wrapped up. He went from striving to be like his super driven bosses, to focusing on our family more. He attended Church with me twice in December. He's asking me about our plans to Home School...oh yes, God is working on him, and there has been a shift. So as we were cleaning out drawers I couldn't help but glance at him and smile because he's clueless to how much this heavy blanket of prayers I have him wrapped in is ACTUALLY warming him up to things...I'm giving 2009 up to our Savior as my steadfast praying wife year. I am claiming His grace for my husband that we may serve Him together by this years end.
On my SIL Leah's blog she wrote down something she herd at a party.
"Everyone keeps saying Happy New Year. It's only a NEW year if we change ourselves and the things that we do. Otherwise, it'll be the same year."
I know this is going to be a great NEW year for me and my house. I have many little things I want to adjust and fine tune, but I only made one New Years resolution: to manage my time better. I loose so much time. I want to be better. A better mom, wife, friend, but most of all servant.
If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don't push your way to the front; don't sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.
- Philippians 2:1-4 (the message)
A few of my other goals are:
To start reading the Bible in chronological order
To learn all I can about Home Schooling
To get back in shape, and maybe loose a few pounds.
To spend more focused time with Jay
To set up running dates with each of my Big Rocks so I see them more
..there are more....but I think that's a good start....
I was ready for a deep cleaning. The new year just gave me a good starting point... the rest is truly in our Fathers Hands.
(BTW Thanks for sharing that blog with us Joan. She is a gifted writer and an amazing Christian. If you didn't click the link earlier you should check out Holy Experience now )
I've been doing some deep cleaning this last week. In my house, in my soul, and in my mind. Letting go of all those things that seem to pile up. Finding new ways to organize the insanity and find happiness and peace in the chaos. I have to say my house looks G-R-E-A-T! Jay and I have deep cleaned almost every nook and cranny. It feels good. It's also felt great to have him working right beside me. I couldn't help but feel the shift in him as 2008 wrapped up. He went from striving to be like his super driven bosses, to focusing on our family more. He attended Church with me twice in December. He's asking me about our plans to Home School...oh yes, God is working on him, and there has been a shift. So as we were cleaning out drawers I couldn't help but glance at him and smile because he's clueless to how much this heavy blanket of prayers I have him wrapped in is ACTUALLY warming him up to things...I'm giving 2009 up to our Savior as my steadfast praying wife year. I am claiming His grace for my husband that we may serve Him together by this years end.
On my SIL Leah's blog she wrote down something she herd at a party.
"Everyone keeps saying Happy New Year. It's only a NEW year if we change ourselves and the things that we do. Otherwise, it'll be the same year."
I know this is going to be a great NEW year for me and my house. I have many little things I want to adjust and fine tune, but I only made one New Years resolution: to manage my time better. I loose so much time. I want to be better. A better mom, wife, friend, but most of all servant.
If you've gotten anything at all out of following Christ, if his love has made any difference in your life, if being in a community of the Spirit means anything to you, if you have a heart, if you care— then do me a favor: Agree with each other, love each other, be deep-spirited friends. Don't push your way to the front; don't sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead. Don't be obsessed with getting your own advantage. Forget yourselves long enough to lend a helping hand.
- Philippians 2:1-4 (the message)
I want to serve. My sweet Savior, my family, and my friends. I want to really feel like doing the dishes is a blessing I can give my family. I want to send birthday cards and letters. I want to start my day on my knees in thanks to the God who gives AND takes away. I want to end my day the same way. I want to focus my time on what matters most my "Big Rocks". I keep hearing that same sentiment, and I know it's Gods message to me this year.
A few of my other goals are:
To start reading the Bible in chronological order
To learn all I can about Home Schooling
To get back in shape, and maybe loose a few pounds.
To spend more focused time with Jay
To set up running dates with each of my Big Rocks so I see them more
..there are more....but I think that's a good start....
I was ready for a deep cleaning. The new year just gave me a good starting point... the rest is truly in our Fathers Hands.
(BTW Thanks for sharing that blog with us Joan. She is a gifted writer and an amazing Christian. If you didn't click the link earlier you should check out Holy Experience now )
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